I quit my job 3 times before leaving for good.
The third time, I still feel in my bones. I was standing in the bathroom getting ready for work, when i felt tension in my left hip and pain in my left breast. The thought of an illness spreading in my body and taking over.
My mum had cancer, so I had this fear about being sick almost once a month. This time I catched myself feeling relieved about the thought: "if i am sick, i would for sure not go to work".
I couldn't believe myself... I couldn't be serious? As if I need to wait to be sick to follow my dreams. The fear of having 1 more year to live felt like a relief and excuse to do what I love. I still ask myself often, If i had only 1 more year to live....
If YOU had only one more year to live? What would you do? What wouldn’t you do?
This question has helped me break down so many concepts of how to go through life. let me to evaluate where I put my energy towards and to follow my inner voice, my inner knowing and allowing not have to work hard to be of value.
I believe when I am doing the work on myself - it heals my mothers wounds, my grandmother and her mother. I believe it heals my someday daughter, and her daughter.