(Don't) Open your Heart

Do not TRY to open your heart now. That would be a subtle movement of aggression towards your immediate embodied experience.

Never tell a closed heart it must be more open; it will shut more tightly to protect itself, feeling your resistance. A heart unfurls only when conditions are right; your demand for openness invites closure. This is the supreme intelligence of the heart.

Instead, bow to the heart in its current state. If it's closed, let it be closed; sanctify the closure. Make it safe; safe even to feel unsafe. Trust that when the heart is ready, and not a moment before, it will open, like a flower in the warmth of the sun. There is no rush for the heart.

Trust the opening and the closing too; the expansion and the contraction; this is the heart's way of breathing; safe, unsafe, safe, unsafe; the beautiful fragility of being human; and all held in the most perfect love.

- Jeff Foster

Reset

Reset.
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. bare.footed discovering hidden paths.
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For the first time in a while I thought I've figured it out - it lasted about 2 weeks or maybe a month.
2 weeks of: yes! I know what I am doing, I know where I am going, I know where my home is, I know my path - I have a plan!
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it felt so good, so grounded, so secure and comforting. the plan sounded so good. I mean, I constructed it. but I had to realize it sounded better than it felt in reality.
after a short getaway - being back in bali, I have my heart speaking louder than before and showing me that I need to peel away layers. layers of what sounds good - to create space for what feels good.
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what feels good, what feels like expansion, what comes from the heart rather than from the mind. what is in alignment rather then rationally makes sense.
does this make sense?

confidence & selfworth

I don't want you to hide anymore.
I don't want you to ever give someone else the power to feel less than your worth.
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A lot of people i have been working with and speaking to, have the same focus:
Inviting more confidence & selfworth into their life. and it's really not a question of age or sex.
for women its often putting other people before themselves. And men are not excluded, often for men and it is that they put work before themselves.

today we worked on the layers of self confidence & self worth:

3. Surface Level
- its the way other people see you. (and its easy to fake)

2. Lifestyle Level
- external things that give you confidence like your job, hobbies, look, clothes, house, money. (and can disappear/be taken away)
ASK YOURSELF:
On what external do I rely on for my self confidence?
this can be looks, job, money, recognition, ...
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1. Core Level (selflove)
What's there, when everything external leaves?
How good am I making me feel? ..... See your strength & gifts and open up to your power and greatness. Figure out your values & beliefs. Become closer to yourself by asking yourself "how do i feel? ", "is this what i really want?",
"what would i love to do? "
"What fulfilles me?" "what will make me feel good? "
and ask as much as you can.

One of the most important for me: Awareness of the power of your thoughts and words.
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#bali #ubud #personalgrowth #love